I wrote to you all about the stressful drive pulling a trailer across the country last week with my post titled, "Take Me Jesus". What I didn't tell you was how I ended up with the load in the first place. We all have a load to carry through life, and they come in all different shapes and sizes. I think you know I'm speaking metaphorically, but humor me with a few more analogies from this same moment in my life.
In life we sometimes have baggage we choose; Not getting a college degree, Quitting my job before I have a new one, Having sex before marriage and now raising a child by myself, Spending all my money on frivolous things and trying to figure out how to pay the rent. These are choices that create consequences we can't change and may have to carry for quite a while. Just like my truck load, once I loaded it and started driving it wasn't going to go away. I was now responsible for it. The issues we create in our past don’t go away. God forgives and we know this to be true even when we don't feel it. We can even forgive ourselves but still live with regret. The differences are the effects we have to constantly live with. The consequences can be long lasting. For me the moment the rain started I began to regret choices that caused my baggage. The pain and stress to drive that truck were sometimes too much. Towards the end of the fourth day of my trip, the wind and rain stopped. I almost forgot the trailer was back there. I then was able to relax. If only the whole trip could have been that way. We also have baggage that is just there. Maybe we were born into it or it was caused by someone else. One thing, regardless of how we got our load, we have to carry it.
Listen to this thought I had after my long drive. "If not for the storms I wouldn't have appreciation for the peace I experienced at the end of the trip."This made me think, and apply this to life in general. I'm sure you have heard people be so thankful for the rough patches in their life. These things taught me to appreciate hard work or that bad relationship helped me find the right person. How do you feel when you overcome or become stronger because of your baggage? I think it's awesome when we can see the good in our past mistakes or the rough life we overcame. Just like my trip, I was so proud of my strength to drive for four day straight under those conditions. I felt more confident in what I could accomplish, but listen closely to this next point. Now before you think I'm saying you should live a life that creates lots of baggage, hear this:
When we were traveling on the highway, I had visions of one of us flipping off the road. To think, one of us could have lost our lives over a bunch of junk. This made me wonder if it was worth it. It's the lives that can be lost that we should be concerned with before we pack our truck with heaps of junk. Not only physically but more importantly spiritually speaking. I pray you limit your baggage before you have to carry it and find peace with the loads we have from outside our control. Just as I found peace in my travel while still having my truck load, we also in life can find peace while still carrying the scars and burdens.